January 14, 2010

Longingness

As I went to sleep last night, sudden thoughts came to my never-tiring-mind. For the teenage years of my life or since I understood what a relationship (boy and girl), I never had a functional or real relationship. Yes, I had a share of boys coming into my life. Those I admit were never really I never dare to love but just wanted to experience it. I dated but never been committed. I was not a commitment freak. I just want to have the right person. But alongside all my defense mechanisms, I long to have that one real relationship. That one relationship where I never need to ask if He is good enough for me and will ever be right for me.

I guess, I am a playgirl once in my life.

Well, I am still young. In the place I am now, I hope I bump into one satisfactory homo sapien to meet my freakin standard. hahaha



Leaving it all to God's will and to fate

I tried calling again Ms. Jan Oliver of Ipreo. In the past two days, I was waiting for her to call me back. In the two days of agony, I was trying to think of what I should I do. But I was a risk taker, so I tried calling again. It took me three times in dialing her number to get it right. I am becoming skeptical about the signs. Then she answered, then she interviewed me. She was really nice. I really feel the job was right for me. Even the pay is good enough. We were agreeing on the terms. So I am scheduled in the 21st, thursday for the personal interview.

I am hoping for the best. But whatever happens, I am already thankful to God.