what break-up?

May 24, 2010

[10:17:36 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: are you there?
[10:19:02 AM] cj_fulkerson: yea
[10:19:15 AM] cj_fulkerson: I just sent you that message, but I'll ask you on IM
[10:19:16 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: im sorry
[10:19:20 AM] cj_fulkerson: So what you're saying is, that you put forth "I think I need to break-up with you. I am sorry." but it was to see if I was going to stop you or chase after you?
[10:19:27 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: no
[10:19:32 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: not like that
[10:19:41 AM] cj_fulkerson: then why did you send it?
[10:20:34 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: because i needed to let it out
[10:20:38 AM | Edited 10:20:49 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i think i need to
[10:20:42 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: but i dont want to
[10:21:01 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i wanted you to help me out
[10:21:10 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i did not know that it will sound like that
[10:21:33 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: are you mad?
[10:21:46 AM] cj_fulkerson: Im un sure
[10:22:06 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: im messing things up
[10:22:13 AM] cj_fulkerson: now that you weren't saying what I thought you were
[10:22:30 AM] cj_fulkerson: why do you think you need to break up with me?
[10:23:47 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: what did i made you feel?
[10:24:05 AM] cj_fulkerson: I asked first
[10:26:37 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i dont want to hurt you
[10:26:56 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i am scared of messing things up but I think i am already messing things up
[10:27:06 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: I am taking this too seriously
[10:27:14 AM] cj_fulkerson: that is why you think you want to break up with me? cuz you're afraid that you are going to hurt me?
[10:29:53 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: no
[10:30:02 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: and i dont want to get hurt
[10:30:12 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i dont want to talk to you in IM
[10:30:14 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: it sucks
[10:30:53 AM | Edited 10:31:15 AM] cj_fulkerson: perhaps, but email is worse, and you're at work, so I don't think we can audio cuz youre at work
[10:33:37 AM] cj_fulkerson: as for what I feel, I'm not sure. I think I'm still trying to figure out what exactly to feel, because I'm debating how I feel about your reasons
[10:37:42 AM] cj_fulkerson: Dont worry about hurting me, I seriously doubt that there is anything you can do to hurt me. Being scared that you are going to mess things up is something else you shouldn't worry about, because you never know until you try, and always being scared of failure means that you wont get anything done. Taking the relationship too seriously is iffy, but I don't think that should scare you from a relationship either, it just means that you need to be careful on how far you go so that you don't possibly go overboard. Finally, about you getting hurt, that is iffy too, but that's just something you need to be careful about as well
[10:48:26 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: am i pushing you away?
[10:48:34 AM | Edited 10:48:37 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i can't take back what i said
[10:49:21 AM] cj_fulkerson: are you asking if you are trying to push me away, or if you actaully are pushing me away?
[10:51:39 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: but i prefer saying something
[10:51:49 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: than saying nothing at all
[10:52:12 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i guess this is the thing you were sayin that there are no assurance that things will be easier than before
[10:52:27 AM] cj_fulkerson: they wont be
[10:52:32 AM] cj_fulkerson: but are we still going to try?
[10:53:33 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: what do you want?
[10:53:54 AM] cj_fulkerson: sure
[10:58:03 AM] cj_fulkerson: if that is ok with you
[10:58:06 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: why?
[10:58:23 AM] cj_fulkerson: warum nicht
[10:58:46 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: as always you are socratic
[11:00:10 AM] cj_fulkerson: indeed
[11:00:26 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: why?
[11:00:32 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: why are bearing with me?
[11:00:48 AM] cj_fulkerson: becasue I believe it could be worth it in the end
Maria Helena Garcia
[11:01:24 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: i'm sorry for my crazy thinking last night
[11:01:37 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: im getting too iffy
[11:01:46 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: and somehow you bear with it
[11:01:56 AM] cj_fulkerson: its ok
[11:02:00 AM | Edited 11:02:17 AM] cj_fulkerson: Thou art forgiven
[11:02:03 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: haha
[11:02:20 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: go to maryland and see me
[11:02:24 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: haha
[11:03:03 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: so are we still in a relationship?
[11:03:10 AM] cj_fulkerson: I think so
[11:03:50 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: you are not sure?
[11:03:55 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: where is the conviction?
[11:03:59 AM] cj_fulkerson: you
[11:03:59 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: can you do video?
[11:04:10 AM | Edited 11:04:19 AM] cj_fulkerson: I'm for the relationship, are you?
[11:04:27 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: definitely!
[11:04:36 AM] cj_fulkerson: ok, sounds good
[11:04:42 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: can you do video?
[11:04:49 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: did you eat already?
[11:05:58 AM] cj_fulkerson: we can do video later
[11:06:03 AM] cj_fulkerson: I haven't eaten yet
[11:06:33 AM] cj_fulkerson: I should probably do that now
[11:09:18 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: ok
[11:09:20 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: sure
[11:09:32 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: hey bring back your status
[11:09:48 AM] cj_fulkerson: are you stalking me on facebook?
[11:10:07 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: it is a mutual thing
[11:10:21 AM] cj_fulkerson: perhaps
[11:10:28 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: please
[11:10:59 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: hey.. will you or will you not?
[11:11:12 AM] cj_fulkerson: I just did
[11:11:25 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: go eat now
[11:11:33 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: yumyum!
[11:11:35 AM] cj_fulkerson: and take a nap?
[11:11:54 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: just be sure we can talk later ok
[11:12:27 AM] cj_fulkerson: ok, with telephone or skype?
[11:12:48 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: both?
[11:12:57 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: if possible
[11:12:59 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: but if not
[11:13:03 AM] cj_fulkerson: ok, later then
Maria Helena Garcia
[11:13:07 AM] cj_fulkerson: have a good day
[11:13:18 AM] Maria Helena Garcia: where is my hug and kiss?
[11:13:45 AM] cj_fulkerson: mwah, *hug*


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